Satan knows what our soft spots are, and in a battle to win souls he will use these things against us. My achilles heel is my sweet babies! After confiding in a few close friends (and my sweet Uncle Johnny) I have come to a place where I fully trust the Lord with these two little lives. It is more important for me to spend eternity with them, then 100 years here on Earth. It is important for me to stay in scripture daily and remember promises from my Heavenly Father, who loves my children more than I do... I read in a Max Lucado book that, "fruit doesn’t grow on mountain tops, but in valleys". I am currently running through a valley: miscarriage, extended family issues, and the latest... my nightmares of loosing my children have started to reoccur.
I am choosing to fully rely on God, while I am continuing to produce fruit in my valley.
And again, "I put my trust in him." And again he says, "Here am I. and the children God has given me." Hebrews 2:13
Only seeing these sweet faces for about 3 and a half hours a day, plays mind games with a "mommy heart" BUT my God is greater!
...I confess my weaknesses, and strive to fill the purpose set out for me, and my heart is at peace...
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