Among the many hats I wear one of my proudest has to be Educator, "Special Education Educator" to be exact. While I am not legally licensed yet, I am so very close and love going to work. This summer has been wonderfully humbling for me. I am learning way more from my kiddo then he is from me. Two months ago if asked what I was aiming for I would have said Vision, without hesitation. This is still a very great possibility; however my heart is being softened for the wonderful world of Autism. Especially after today: Upon getting my kiddo off of the bus I knew it was going to be a rough morning, but didn't know how bad. I have a new bite mark and a pretty good shiner yet, have fallen in love with this child. Holding him on the floor today while he was crying it was brought to our attention that his meds had been changed, and they were trying something different. He couldn't help any of this!! This beautiful child has things going on inside of him that I can't begin to understand, and it doesn't seem fair!! I want to badly to help him, and when we finally are able to see a little bit of "T" coming through the autism he is awesome!! I want to help him. understand him, and in a way fix him! This may be wrong of me because the truth is he ISN'T broken, and in our wonderful little structured world he is "Normal". So where do I go from here? I just keep trucking through autism and loving them in spite of what the rest of the world thinks. As for now I am keeping my options open and waiting to see what the Lord puts in my path in the year to come. After work today our Autism Specialist (who doesn't hand out complements very often) told me that I was wonderful with "T" today, and hoped I would keep an open mind for structured learning. Who'd of ever thought I couldn't possibly be an Autism Teacher?!?!
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