-that's not what I expected to hear-

I blog this because, the only people who read my blog are very good friends and I feel comfortable sharing and asking for prayer. Embarrassingly I went to the gynecologist today expecting to hear that I was going to need a bladder tuck/lift, whatever it is they do to take care of that very embarrassing problem. I mean I am 27 years old and have as many accidents as my 2 year old! =) No fun!! Although I have delivered two 9 pounds babies. However after an exam I found out that my bladder is just fine, and exactly where it should be. Dr. Cline informed me that I have an enlarged uterus. He asked if I was done having children. I told him I was undecided, and that is when he told me that I was a good candidate for a hysterectomy.. What?? I am 27 and he wants to take out the part that makes me a girl?!?! After a lot of conversation it boils down to this:

1. 
   
   I have a decision to make.


2. 
   
   If I am done having children then he need to have a hysterectomy.


3. 
   
   I can try Physical Therapy (which he has already scheduled me an appointment for) and see if that helps, if it doesn't then I will still need to have my enlarged uterus removed. But this option would buy me some time (a few years) If I would like to have more children.


4. 
   
   Do I want my children? YES - I think.... but I can't... not now... In two months I will be unemployed while I student teach. I have NEVER been unemployed!

So my plan of finishing up my masters in the next two years and starting over with two more children is not going to happen. With tear filled eyes I have to remember that it is just that "my plan" and God has a bigger one. I have prayed for normal functioning children, I have also prayed for children who will serve the Lord. Maybe God sees the bigger picture and I am supposed to be done with two children?!?! I don't know! In a little bit of shock and a lot of sad. I don't know, but God does. He has never left or forsaken me. So please pray with me and Brett as we make a decision as what to do. I go back in 4-6 months to see Dr. Cline and go over what our plan of action is going to be. Hysterectomy now or later? Baby now or never? I DON'T KNOW!!

*a wonderful babysitter*

My parents and sisters are always really good to keep my children anytime we have asked. However, with busy lives it has been difficult for our schedules to match up.

Brett and I have been thinking about asking Bethany Berning for quite some time now!

Our children *LOVE* her and I am super comfortable with her ability to watch them.

Last Sunday Brett and I celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary, so we decided to out to for dinner on Saturday.

When we left to go and get Bethany, Curtis looks at me and says, "I am so excited"

We invited Noah to come along and play! They were on the trampoline when we left ~ And~

When we returned 2.5 hours later! =)

Curtis and Cadie had a wonderful time, and I am thankful to have found another option for a sitter who lives so close, and my kiddos love so much!!

A Small Get-Away!

Last week was spring break.. it was also week 12 of my final semester before student teaching. Brett's parents had received two free suites at Argosy in Kansas City and invited us to go down with them, for my birthday. I was hesitant at first, because I have NEVER left my children for more than a few hours. Brett and I discussed it and decided that if Kelly, my sister, was able to come to our house and keep them that we would go. AND SHE DID! We left Wednesday morning and headed for Kansas City. It was "oddly-wonderful" to have three hours to talk with my husband, or should I say to talk TO my husband.

Our room was really nice. The bathroom had a walk-in/sit/down steamer/shower! Brett and I are not much into the casino (prior to this vacation I hadn't ever been in one) but being that I am a people watcher it did make for entertainment. (people-watching may be the biggest pet-peeve Brett has with me, I am trying to break this habit). On Thursday Brett and I spent the day at Legends, shopping, walking, talking and eating! =) After leaving Legends we went to Cabela's. This was more for Brett then myself, but he did just go through several (or more) stores with me! =)

I let Brett talk me into going to the casino with him and his parents at 2 in the morning on Friday!! That would be the far left picture! *crazy* I get up with a child at that time at least once a week, can't believe I did it on vacation!!

Friday we grabbed a bit to eat at the T-Rex cafe with my In-Laws and headed home. I missed my babies SOOO MUCH! (I only cried one time when we were gone) It was so great to spend some time with Brett, we haven't laughed with one another in awhile!

We will definitely go to Kansas City Legends again, but next time I will take my babies!!

I'm Done!!

Twelve Weeks I have:
• Read (almost completely) five educational textbooks
• Written 32 papers
• Completed 28 Educational Case Studies
• Created an online portfolio http://kdykeportfolio.weebly.com/
• Kept two children, two dogs and a husband fed, clothed and alive =)
• Put on 15 pounds ;’( -yes I noticed- sadly late night homework was normally accompanied by a box or bowl of something

I almost quite!! If my mom had not talked me out of it about week 10 of this semester, I would have! I am so thankful that I did not, but I am even more THANKFUL that it is over. No more choosing which to do first, housework or homework. No more feeling guilty because I told Cadie I would not rock her, because I had too much homework to complete. No more 1 and 2 o’clock nights munching on anything to stay awake. It is time for me to get back to “normal”!! A cleaner house, weight watchers (Love this program and it works!), getting in a full workout (instead of hoping to do it when homework is done, and then falling asleep) and the part I am the most excited about… going to bed when my husband does ;)

God of wonders

Last night we took the kids out to jump on the trampoline, in the dark. Curtis has been asking us ever since we put it up if he could jump in the dark.. I am not to embarrassed to admit that Mommy was the one saying NO, Yes I am scared of the dark. (and most everything that moves )

We jumped, we played crack-the-egg, we played “I’m thinking of a dinosaur”, but my absolute favorite family memory (thus far, probably) was when we all laid and looked at the stars.. Of course Brett went into a scientific explanation of what they were, and approximately how far away from us they are (I married a very smart man).

I wish the stars had shown up in my picture! They were millions of stars out last night It was when Brett started talking about galaxy's that Curtis broke out in son.. “God of Wonders Beyond Our Galaxy, You are Holy, Holy”

Christmas in March..

For Christmas Curtis and Cadence received a new swing-set/fort and a trampoline. Brett’s parents got them a the new swing-set/fort and my parents gave them a trampoline. It has been tough to see them sitting in the box for three months. Saturday it was finally nice enough outside to set up the trampoline. (the fort says it will require 48 man hours, we will be calling in help for that project)

*but before the trampoline was put up Cadie and Curtis got an added bonus, Brett made them a tire-swing*

Then Cadie found the mud, so we had to go and change her clothes!! She is always one step behind her brother!!

We are addicted.. my legs have been a tad bit sore! =)

Welcome Spring..

We love going to Sedgwick County Park!

And so does everyone else, it is always super busy!